new year resolutions

It's that time of the year again. time to look back and reflect.
what went wrong, what went right, what i should have done, what i shouldn't have done...
and then, look ahead, at the coming year and reflect..
what will i do.
365 days in this past year, and only a handful of them are memorable.
what happened to the rest?
i cant remember.

"zindagi lambi nahin...badi honi chahiye.." -- ritesh deshmukh in bluffmaster.
very true..

hence resolution no. 1 : i will try and make each and every coming day memorable.

i'm on a diet. again. for the zillionth time. bad timing, i know. it's the party season for god's sake! all yummy cakes and goodies! but i really have to have to loose weigth, so...

resolution no. 2: i will try and loose atleast some, if not lots of weight, this year.
(hehehhheee......hehehhhee...hehhehhee...this one comes every year by default!!!)

"u know how i am...i can be a bit rude at times!!!" -- shah rukh in kal ho na ho.

resolution no. 3: i'm going to try and control my really short temper, and my really loud-when-i'm-angry voice! and of course, i will also try to be less of an emotional and sentimental fool that i am as of now.

phew!
i think thats enough for 1 yr..what say?!

i havent made these promises to myself. i am just going to try to achieve them. because promises are meant to be broken.
only trials succeed!

"vaade to tut jate hai..sirf koshishein kamiyab hoti hain.." -- this ones not from ne movie...it's my original!

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things i learnt in xxxxxx-i'm-the-worlds-biggest-pansy's unix class:

* the more you do for someone, the less they think it is.

*the fact of the matter is that you always know what the right thing to do is. the hard part is doing ( no double meanings here!) it.

*our greatest glory lies in not never falling, but in rising up everytime we fall.

*boredom implies inspiration.

*smile when you are sad, for in that lies a true challenge.

*always take risks -- there's an equal chance that they might be in your favour.

*in life, live only to make yourself happy, becaue it is impossible to make the whole world happy.

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"haan chal tata" (as rajeev very cutely says) 2005...
welcome 2006...

have a happy and prosperous new year, and wish the same for me!!!!

untill next time...

magical!

I was sitting by my christmas tree last night, with the lights off and only the lights on the tree glowing..if i was asked to sum up the feelin in 1 word it would be : magical.
to the very bottom.
it was silent, the red-greeblue-yellow lights were twinkling on the tree, and thats it. it was one of those moments, when you feel that everyhting, and i mean EVERYTHING is going to be ok. u can actually feel that someone is there to take care of all your problems and that even though he's responsible for them in the first place..he's going to make it ok.
there are very few times in life when such moments come.
even when i was a kid.. christmas was my favorite festival..because of the magical feelin that it brings with it everytime..because of the yummy goodies..because of the gift santa still leaves for me under the tree..because its christmas!
i got NON ALCOHOLIC "fruit" champange this year... maybe coz i've been pesterin my dad and friends that i want to taste alcohol! what can i say -- finally!!!
hehehheee... :-)
MERRY CHRISTMAS!!
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this one's for u nikhil ...

1 very good reason why u shouldn't drink (u know what i mean..over drink)

when u drink, u loose ur senses.
when u loose ur senses, its like loosin that much part of your life, because u dont know what ur doing and dont remember later what u did..
and life's too short to lose any part of!

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life is an echo, it all coms back...
the good the bad the false the true...
so give the world the best you've got...
and the best will come back to you.

untill next time....

Let go.

Let go.
Why is it so difficult to let go?
Of old memories.
Of loved ones who love us no more.
Of the past.
Why does the human brain have this pathetic habit of living in the past?
Why can’t we just move on with our life, by just accepting, that what once was, is now no more. Be it relationships, times, or even people. Enjoy the memories, don’t mourn them. Memories never die, even if the times, relationships or the people they are associated with die. Think back on some incident that happened, and smile, be happy that it happened. Don’t be sad that the person is now not as close, or the times are not as good. Don’t be disheartened, because you don’t have it anymore. Be happy that at least you had it for sometime. Some people didn’t even have the chance to have it. At least you had it for sometime. How much time- that does not matter. You had it. That matters. The reason, God gave us the capability to remember, to make memories, is so that when we didn’t have the original, we could look back at the memories and still smile about something. So what if he’s not your best friend anymore? So what if she hates your very sight? So what if they’re no more? So what?
Let it go. Let him go. Let her go. Let them go. There’s only so much baggage that you can carry. Whatever happened had to happen. Nothing you can or could have done about it. It might have been your fault. It might not. Who cares now?
All that matters is that it’s over. And clinging onto it is not going to bring it back. Whatever it is. But whatever it was, it was definitely beautiful. So why spoil its beauty by mourning for it?

I know it hurts. I know you want it back. Badly. I know. But I also know that no matter how much you want it or how much it hurts, it’s over. For ever. The thing you are crying for has moved on. In life, into heaven, or onto another time. And so should you. Because as you sit and mourn for the things that you don’t have, you are missing out on the things that you do. Remember that the moment that just went by, will never come back. And you wasted it by crying. You could have rather made another memory to smile about. You could have smiled and given someone else a memory that they cherish for the rest of their life. You still can. Try it. And yeah… don’t forget…
Let go.

mixed nuts

i've been writin for over two years now, and done nothing major about it. just write somethin that i fell strongly about, mail it to friends and my sis (my biggest critic), get their feed back and thats it. some of them told me to publish my own blog, but the idea of my creation up on public display didnt appeal to me so much. but this year, i finally did it. so when i mailed all my friends informing them about my blog, askin them to read it, and comment, i got many reactions. it was like opening a bag of mixed nuts..little bit of all types!

one friend (if i put his name here he'll kill me!) didnt like the idea of makin a public display of my life.
another one (if i put his name here, his girlfriend will kill me!) said.."damn sexy blog..but what the hell is cute n confused? put ur own name there chcik..be proud of who you are!"
thnx teddy-bear..but as i said..i need time..not yet comfy with that..
btw..there is a story behin cute n confused..
i had to sign up for this blog-site, and it needed some hundered and one names..blog name..ur name..nick name..and god knows what all names. on top of that, it wasnt acceptin most of the names as they were already in use.
so i asked kiki describe me..what am i..
she said.."di..ur fat irritatin talkative cute and confused!"
out of all the adjectives she used, cute and confused were the best..so..
back to the nuts...
some ppl were shocked that i could think so deep and etc etc..
du-uh!!
i can do better..just wait and watch!
the "sadoo's" have not reacted, as usual. they dont react to anythin..so no comments from them!

but to all of u'll i have 1 thing to say: thank u!! (and pls keep reading, and tell me when i put up somethin stupid here..which is goin to happen very soon, knowin my impulsiveness!)

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missin u today payal.
heard the song and it reminded me of u..

juda hoke bhi tu mujhme abhi baki hai..
palkon mein banke aansu tu chali aati hai..

maybe things didnt work out for us in this lifetime, but if given a choice, in my next lifetime also, i would any day take up the opportunity to be ur friend..
not so sure what u think...

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i need a cute sign off..ne one got any nice ideas?
untill next time...

Life

i wrote this when i was going thru a very difficult time in life.. when ever i'm down reading this helps me..hope it works for you too..
(mailed it to manish who published in his blog..so if u've already read it.. read it once more!)

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LIFE

Life is strange. To live it even stranger. One day you are going about your daily routines, relatively happy and wham-bham-sorry-ma’am, but here’s where the twist comes in your life. A twist so big, a shock so tremendous, a tragedy so deep that it can shatter your very existence. It can. But that depends on whether you let it.
Whenever you are faced with a situation, there are two things that you can do – face it with a smile or face it with tears. But face it you have to. Agreed that at that point smiling hurts more than crying. But sometimes you have to smile. For the person who is looking at you for strength. For the person who is looking at you for help. For the GOD who is looking at you for faith.
FAITH.
A very strong word with an even stronger meaning. They say – “Faith moves mountains.” That’s not true. Faith moves GOD and GOD moves the mountain. So trust him. If HE has given it to you, he knows that you can take it. Go about life and it’s daily routines like nothing has happened. Don’t let the anger and the frustration and the hurt get to you. Rather let the warmth of the sun get to you. Let the swiftness of the breeze get to you. Smile- for it costs nothing. Absolutely nothing. Smile so that GOD feels guilty for trying to make you cry. Smile so that the person who loves your smile can smile.
So pull up your pants and face your problem. Or problems. One at a time. Look life square in the eye and say – “O.K. dude. Challenge accepted.” And then, prepare to win.
It’s not going to be easy. No ways. It’s not even going to be difficult. In fact, it’s going to be very very difficult. But you have no choice. The only choice you have is whether to smile or to cry. So choose to smile. Let go of the dreams that will never be fulfilled now. But don’t let go of dreaming. Dream new dreams. And aim to fulfill them. Let go of friends who no longer consider you worthy. But don’t let go of friendship. Make new friends. And keep them. There is this advertisement being flaunted all over town. It says:

“Impossible is just a big word thrown around by small men who find it easier to live in the world that they have been given rather than to explore the power they have to change it. Impossible is not a fact. It’s a opinion. Impossible is not a declaration. It’s a dare. Impossible is potential. Impossible is temporary.
Impossible is nothing.”

Read it. Again. And again. And again. Until it registers in your head that nothing is impossible. Not even putting toothpaste back into it’s tube. Not giving up an addiction. Definitely not a miracle. Do you believe in miracles? I do. And you should too. Our life is a miracle. Each breath that we take is a miracle. They do happen you know. You just have to believe in them to see them. To feel them.
When tragedy strikes, just being able to survive is a miracle. When going about your daily routine, one moment, time will stand still, and you will wonder – what am I doing? How can I be so normal after everything that has happened to me? How can I pretend that nothing has changed, when the entire meaning of my life has changed? And then you will remember the first sentence that you jut read.
Life is strange. To live it, even stranger.

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and yeah manish -- it's not fat ppl in general who are so nice, and approachable..
anybody can be that..u can too..it's whats within that reflects outside..be comfortable with what u are, who you are, dont think you are a lesser mortal.. no one on this earth is less or more than anybody else.
we're all different.. all unique.. and yet, all the same. we're all people who desire money, happiness, satisfaction (that type, and the other general one too!) and at the end of the day: appreciation and acceptance and love by other ppl.
so have confidence in what you are, who you are, how you are.
i'm going to quote a movie as usual...

"tumhare hisab se tumhare pass jo hai kam hai, lekin kisi aur ki nazar se dekho to tumhare pass bahut zyada hai! hason, jiyo, muskurao, khush raho..kya pata..kal ho na ho!"

its from kal ho na ho (obviously) and the way HE(shah rukh kahn) says it..uff!!
think abt it... and live by it..
i do and u can too.
untill next time...

Things i learnt in the last 1 and a half months

Things that i learnt in the last one and a half months:
1. You never know how much shit you can tolerate, until you actually get it on a plate.
2. In the course of life you meet different people, and it’s possible to like each and every one of them.
3. There’s nothing like home food.
4. When you leave home for a new place, there’s no other place like home.
5. When you come back home, there’s no other place like the one you left behind.
6. You get reminded of the silliest things at the most improper times.
7. No matter how hard you try not to, you keep reliving bygone golden moments again and again in your head.
8. It’s possible to fall into bad unbreakable habits in the span of 1 month.
9. It’s difficult to break these habits, mostly because you don’t want to let go of the last things left as reminders of that place.
10. There’s nothing like home food.
11. When you’re without family, you tend to make your friends your family and talk and behave with them in the same way. This might not always be appreciated.
12. 2 weeks is time long enough to like someone, if not fall in love with them.
13. It feels good when u patch up with a long lost friend.
14. There’s nothing like home food.
15. Life is a barking bitch. She doesn’t bite.
16. The worst gift a technical guy can give to his technical or not so technical girlfriend is a web-site!!! (thanks for this lesson dude!)
17. First impressions are often wrong. People should be given a second chance.
18. Even if it feels weird to hang out with new people, people who are not “your group”, you must do that. That’s how you make a bigger group.
19. People who look scary are never scary. It’s the one’s that look docile, that you should be careful of.
20. There’s nothing like home food.
21. Where there is a big group, confusion and misunderstandings get included by default.
22. The more the merrier.
23. There is a song for every situation in life.
24. People who fall sick and scare other people should be slapped. Really hard.
25. People who fall sick and scare other people, and have been slapped, and still refuse to take care of themselves should be thrown off the 4th floor balcony.
26. What matters most is how you see yourself, and not how you think the world see’s you.
27. There’s nothing like home food.
28. It’s possible to live one entire lifetime in a month and a half.
29. You can get really really attached to people and places in 1 month.
30. It hurts when you have to leave behind something, someplace or someone you’re attached to, and move on with life.
31.But in life, you always have to move on. No matter what.
32.There’s nothing like home food.
33.Life is like a trip with strangers. By the time you realize you’re having fun, and these people are not as bad as they seemed initially, it’s over.
34.You can never get back lost time. Seize the moment, and do what you want to. (Hopefully, the other person is also in the mood at that time!!!)
35. It’s not necessary that people you like, always like you back too.
36.It’s not necessary that people you hate, always hate you back too.
37. If people you liked always liked you back, and people you hated always hated you back, most of life’s complications would be over.
38. If you don’t like someone, but they like you, be nice to them. You never know when you’ll be in their situation. (or u need a favor from them!)
39. There’s nothing like home food.
40. We can’t be everywhere all the time. That’s why God created the concept of memories.
41. Don’t expect anything. From anyone. This way you’ll not get hurt. Ever.
42. You never know, the last time that you see somebody, that it’s the last time you’re seeing them. Hence, always say nice things, for that might be the last thing you say to somebody.
43. But don’t ever praise people falsely. It’s the biggest insult you can throw at someone.
44. Life is like wet sand on a beach. People are like the footprints, and time is like the waves. The waves erase the footprints as soon as possible. But there are always some footprints on the sand.
45. Always keep smiling, no matter what your current situation in life. It increases you face value (that is, if you ever had any in the first place!)
46. Don’t trust people easily, you never know what’s going on inside their head.
47. There’s nothing like home food.
48. It’s possible to keep in touch with everyone you promised that you would keep in touch with, but only if you want to.
49. The best thing to have when you’re crying is a pair of strong arms hugging you tightly.
50. Don’t cry in front of people, most of them don’t know what to do.
51. Every person you meet takes a part of you with them.
52. Every person you meet leaves a part of them self with you.
53. There’s nothing like home food.
54. Sometimes you must smile, even if you don’t want to. Your smile means a lot more to someone, than you realize it does.
55. You don’t have to stay in touch with people to know that they are there for you when you need them.
56. Last but no the least: there’s nothing like home food!!!!